'INELUDIBLE' I can't see the tidal wave But I know that it is coming. I can't hear the tidal wave But I know that it is coming. I can't prepare, or hide from it But I know that it is coming. I don't know when it will arrive But I know it will be soon. Soon my mind will be haywire: A dark, chaotic miasma Of brutal images and feelings Will obscure my view of the world. The minor considerations of life? They cease to contain meaning. The tenderness I feel for others? Mostly frozen in stasis. I hold tight to my small fixations And to my minor eccentricities; They're not much to be proud of But I feel they're all I have. I try to calm my mind and body Aware that trying is not enough; I know the tidal wave is coming And my fear holds supremacy.