'UNDER FIRE' Why Can I not treat myself With the kindness I show to my friends? Why Is my grief, anger, anxiety So relentlessly shameful In my own mind? I do not like Asking these questions, Let alone contemplating The merciless answers. If circumstances were different My mindset would be A-1 Healthy. But they're not So it's not. SCREAM silently; Lie to those around me: A bad but effective way To limp to the end of the day.